Music:Heaven's Light-Hunchback of Notre Dame
Mood: Electrified
I am not one for flattery, and I know quite well that he will read this post, but I will just say this about J.D--He has completely turned on it's ear any and all notions I previously held about what it means to be a true follower of God. A part of God's Army. His faith is unreal to me, and it is that very faith that makes everything so real. I honor you for this.
I recently discussed the comfort that comes from knowing what I know now that I would still choose my own emotional baggage over my proverbial neighbor's. And I do still maintain that this is true. It is also a great comfort to know that when not hindered by the veil I DID choose this baggage, these trials. I knew at that time what I have always known somewhere within my mortal mind....This is right, this is the way things should be, this is God's plan.
Tonight I feel as if I could do anything. My faith is that great. I feel I could shake off this mortal coil and transform myself to my perfect body. Become who I will be when all is said and done. But I know this is not what God wants for me. I still have a definite purpose to serve here in this veil of tears. I still have a great deal of growing to do...
I am a private person when it comes to my beliefs. I believe in free agency fully and completely. But there comes a time (especially in these latter-days) when one needs to put both feet in one camp or the other. Do a spiritual hokey pokey, and turn yourself around. After all, that's what it's all about.
My heart and allegiance have always belonged to God although there have been times where I have been distracted by the ways of mammon, or worse, the ways of demons. Yet here I am, protected by God's love through it all...now it is time to spread the word. The word that the end is coming..it has already started in fact. I see it everyday the literal demons in people's faces and deeds. It is quite unnerving. Time to choose sides people. And I implore you to choose wisely. There are no second chances.
Before you think me a hypocrite please know that I do not write these things as admonitions for all, I include myself in this advice because I am one in such dire need of it. I need to step up and fight, and take the gauntlet that has been dropped at my feet.
Right now I am a Duck, working furiously under the surface to get through each day. But I will be a Phoenix. I WILL RISE FROM THE ASHES OF THE CHAINS THAT BIND ME.
